Tuesday, July 5, 2005

So Now What?

I am in the "So now what" stage. At least, that is what I've deemed it.

It is no longer a meantime, if for no other reason, but simply because I cannot identify what I am between.

For years ... since eighth grade if you want to nail down a particular point in time, I have been pursuing this goal. Therefore, I've always sort of had a "built in" goal.

Middle school, high school: my goal was to get good grades, graduate high in the class, get scholarships, go to college.

College (year 1-2): get good grades, make an impact on campus, transfer

College (year 3-4): get good grades, make the transfer student recognized on campus, graduate with high honors

From that point, my goal was to get a job in the field of communications...one that I would make an impact in the community and have opportunity to work my way up the ladder.

Well...so I did it. Graduated from high school, loved the 2-year college, made a splash as a transfer student, fought for my high honors and graduated with a Bachelors degree. Then I got a job as a public relations coordinator (even thought that's not the title, but Colleen told us it wouldn't be the title). I am in an influential company in the community--an organization all around the country if I wanted to stay there and move around within the system (which I don't think I do). I'm attending all of the important meetings and the founding member of a young professionals service club.

So, now what? I don't have any goals! I don't know what to make a goal...besides learning my job. And I know everyone has gone through this, but the problem is, no one has told me how they did.

I'm not the type of person to sit back and wait out the storm. I like taking action. I like learning the patterns and applying them to my situation. I follow in the footsteps of those who have gone before me. I need an instruction manual. That's what I'm looking for. I have found my answers in books, so give me that. And don't tell me it doesn't exist. If everyone has gone through this before me, then someone should have been smart enough to write it down. Why are they making us figure it out for ourselves for the first time all over again? You wouldn't let your child touch fire if they didn't know it was dangerous. You don't let them drink poison just so they will learn that it's deadly for themselves. So why are you making us suffer in this instance?

Tangent. :-p

But anyways, So ... now what?

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Now you do what nearly all Americans do.

You get into a rut. Then you wait and pray to retire while you're still mobile. Then you die.

Or something like that.

Have a nice day!

Anonymous said...

Stacey,
this is why i don't understand how people like you actally function. I have just become accustom to being let down, so i don't make goals. what's the point? you achieve it and now are left with that good feeling, sure. But now what? Take if from the most cynical, pessimistic person you probably met in college. There's no point in setting goals.
If you must, go broad, only focus on world domination. Or how about non-specific goals? for example, I would LIKE to get a job eventually. Or I would like to eat dinner today. Now there's a goal. Ambitious people confuse me. You are like hampsters. Running for something, but never quite getting there because there's always something else you could get.
Try doing nothing for a week. What's the longest amount of time you have gone without leaving your house? I think mine is five days.

On a serious note llama llama, just because you aren't moving in a linear direction now doesn't mean that you should freak out. Please understand, goals don't have to be so lofty. Make small goals, even silly ones if you must make goals. Make a if i were going to die tomorrow what would i want to do list and try doing those things. Goals don't always have to concern school or work. You are an amazing person and have experience tons of stuff, try to be content for a minute and concentrate on not working toward a goal. That could be a goal. I know you have trouble with be still. Being still doesn't mean being stagnant. Just relax and take in what you have achieved. Wallow in what you have cultivated for yourself for a while. CHILL OUT! Baby steps. You are in an amazing place and have worked at your job for TWO MONTHS! you aren't going to be president tomorrow.

Another point, who is your favorite Goo Goo Doll? okay stupid question. But for real, what's your favorite Robby song?

Stacey said...

Look at my earrings and necklace and tell me who my favorite ggd is. As far as the favorite Robby song...I don't know the title. Gutterflower: first line is ... "You never know, some folks think the world just moves to slow. But was it you that told me I'm your everything..."

I have a GUESS, but i'm not sure.